I've hit a wall. I'm stuck in this horrible negative thinking spiral of doom. And I need to get out! So I'm starting a second blog. One that hopefully I will be able to update more often.
I've felt like I've needed to be writing a lot more than I am. I have personal journals that I'm trying get back into the habit of writing in. But I enjoy the interaction of having a public blog. Something everyone can share with others and maybe benefit from. I have my music page, which I'm going to keep doing, but I struggle to find topics frequently that are worthy of a whole blog post. The result unfortunately has been that I post every couple of months, if I'm lucky. I found out today that Blogger, the host I use for this and my music page (and yes I'm slow on the uptake) lets you manage several different blogs all in one place. This makes my idea of adding another one a lot easier and more manageable than I originally thought. I've had the idea of adding a second one for awhile since I've been hitting writers block with my music page. The problem was figuring what to write...
A few nights ago I was discussing with Tyson about what I should write about . After brainstorming some ideas, he finally suggested that I start a 'Happiness' blog. It was really kind of perfect! It's not news to most who know me well that I have always struggled with seeing the positive side of things. I get so bogged down by the negatives that it's hard for me to see through the murk and fog to the sunlight above. I'm surrounded by loving friends and family and have a pretty good life considering what others out there have to deal with, I just have a hard time seeing it sometimes. Depression really is a bitch! Anyhoo... with his suggestion, I immediately felt like it was what needed to be done!
The idea is to look for the good in my every day life. Both the big and little things. And in finding the things that make me happy, pick something specific to highlight for each post and extrapolate upon it. I think for me this an exercise I could really use right now. I'm hoping that being diligent about posting and spending quality time reflecting on the things in my life that make it special, the whole idea of "optimism" will bleed over and start to become part of my subconscious. *gasp* ME an Optimist? HA! What a concept! (My pessimistic self is laughing hysterically right now at the thought.) I know it won't happen overnight. And I know that with my current state of being, making myself find those good things is going to be a challenge. But I really am kind of excited about starting it. And who knows, maybe down the line if people enjoy reading and interacting with the blog, then I will work on highlighting things that make others happy too. If anyone is interested in being a guest writer or wants to suggest topics I can write about, let me know.
